Christmas Just Ain't Christmas...

So today is the first day of a month that every kid is  sure to be excited about. I'm not a big fan of Holiday's well... up until about 3 years ago I totally was (another story for another day). However I am a definite fan of Christmas music!!! I've waited 11 whole months to pull out my Christmas c.d's and just play them. Its a shame its not a year round sound!!! So for the next 25 days I will be posting on a title of my favorite songs (if the PROCRASTINATION bug does not kick in).

Since my "another story for another day" ties into the title, I may as well speak on that. The song by The O'Jay's goes.. Christmas just ain't Christmas without the ones you love. That speaks volumes to my overall opinion of Holidays. Up until 3 years ago I loved to be home for the Holidays, spending time with my family, laughing, eating, and just having a good time. But three years ago I had 3 deaths in my immediate family which were back to back (in 10 months). That pretty much took its effect on me and... things were just different, a home full of laughter, love, warmth; would sometimes become a quiet, cold house. I remember not wanting to go home for Christmas in '05 because I had taken my Grandfather's death really, really bad to the point of an internal breakdown. But I felt the constant urge of something/someone pushing me to go ahead and be with my family, that was also the last Christmas my moma and I would ever spend together. 

Three years later and I am so far removed from anything that resembles... Holiday Cheer (now that may not be the word I need to use but, you get the picture). I don't know if I need divine intervention from Denzel's character in The Preacher's Wife or what? Holidays such as Thanksgiving and Christmas if I didn't make any prior obligations I would really just stay in bed and sulk. It's like I put myself in this tiny box so that I don't... feel. To those of you that know me personally, I am not depressed or anything, I'm sure new memories will come and give me back the Holiday Cheer I once had, this is just my personal outlook. 

Christmas just ain't Christmas,
Without the one you love,
New Years just ain't New Years,
Without the one you love

P.S- Really though, when you listen to the song it has a crunk beat where you actually can't be sad!!! 

Still Here

Hello to all in the blogosphere, I have definitely been missing in action and wanting to blog soooo bad but.... I"M A PROCRASTINATOR :-(    I've actually written up soooo many blogs (which I still plan on posting) but laziness or whatever you call it have gotten the best of me. I know what's been going on with you (yep, I've been stalking), so here's what's up with me:

1. I'm officially obsessed with President-elect Barack Obama, not just the political side but his personal life, etc. dates with wife, children, mother-in-law... its pretty serious!!! Each day I realize "My President is black" it makes me more and more happy!!!

2. Wanted to give the hair a break, so I got braids (individuals which stop right before my butt), let me just say these are not micros and this crap is HEAVY. But, I promised (insert side-eye) my beautician I would keep them for a month at least.   *NOTE TO SELF* NEVER, EVER, EVER, EVER  get extensions this long, it is soooo not me, way to much work!!!

3. I'm officially obsessed with You Tubers who do makeup tutorials, each and everyday I'm rushing home to see who's uploaded something new. Now I want to and will create some of their looks... however, makeup is soooo freaking expensive, even some of the drugstore makeup. I really don't know how they do it, but I guess you have to start your collection somewhere. Who knows, maybe I'll appear on the tube someday!!!

4. I've found two new favorite shows to replace Army Wives and Atlanta Housewives. Drumroll please... one is Dexter on showtime, it is soooo suspensful. My co-workers actually put me on this and over the weekend I watched about 3 episodes back to back, and loving it!!! The second is a reality show (just can't get enough) Ruby on Style network, its about this obese woman who's desperately trying to loose weight, a matter of life and death. If you get a chance, check them both out. Now you all know I'm a fan of Keyshia Cole's reality show, but seriously, I think this should be the last season, there's only soooo much drama until you're like enough fuckery already.

5. Saved the best for last!!! I'm seriously contemplating moving back to Ga. and soon. I moved to Va. for a change, and after being here for a year I've experienced it. I actually spend a lot of my time and money on trips to Ga. because that's where all of my family and friends are. I feel like I don't have a career established here and I really miss living on my own. If I had a better position (more money and something I like), I would stay. The only thing I would would really, really miss are the malls. I like metro D.C, but I'm a southern girl at heart and there's nothing like the A (Atlanta).

I really plan on blogging on a regular, this is definitely an outlet for me and I truly miss it, I just have to work on my awful habit... PROCRASTINATION!!!

Best of fall, or so I thought

It is my favorite time of year, season to be exact... fall. The way the crisp air hits your face but not strong enough to send a chill through your body, the scatter of brown/orange leaves across the pavement, and knowing that my favorite holiday is at the end of this month. I wish I could spend this month basking in the season, but NO this month is dedicated to Heidi.

I never knew what it meant to be grown until Heidi came into my life. Heidi is my 2 year old Honda Accord Coupe. Along with Heidi came car payments, insurance, and maintenance (really not really). I am almost pulling out my hair with these fees, this month alone I have:

*Gas (a given)

*Inspection

*County Sticker

*Renew my tag

*Two front tires

*Alignment

*Citation (I really thought that would disappear)

Fall, or the month of October would feel so much better if my load were lighter and I could focus on new boots and accessories, I digress.

Just Reflecting

I've been M.i.A for about the whole month because I was taking time off reflecting. It was a year ago on the 1st that I  moved to the DMV, I remember it like yesterday. Since that time so much has changed... I've learned some of the hottest malls, had about 4 jobs, and met many people. I've dealt with the many woes of living in the country, adapting to my "vegetarian lifestyle", and the whole concept of traffic.

There are still areas which need work ASAP like finding a church. Honestly I'm not sure what the DMV has in store for me or if it will be my final destination. However this past year has definitely shaped me in more ways than one. I've learned so much about ME that I haven't realized in 26 years. Having this blog has helped me release stress and venture into the minds of other bloggers. Out of 30 days my reflection period must come to the end so I can focus more on my Handbags, hair, and heels :-)  

Must See Reality Tv

So I've definitely reached the over 25 mark, I've been tuning into The Democratic National Convention all week. I feel like I've been at an adult pep rally the entire time. I don't know if any of you all caught it yesterday, but after Hillary's speech the media took a turn for the worse. Not the media exactly, but the delegate they interviewed. The media interviewed a black woman maybe in her late 30s early 40s. The lady was very passionate about Hillary Clinton, to the point of holding back tears and a cracking voice. Now I'm all for people being passionate about their beliefs, but the fuckery which followed took the cake. The lady spoke on how she truly believed that Hillary's speech on "unity" was exactly the speech of a President. This delegate said that she wouldn't vote for McCain, but to make it simple, she hasn't made a connection to Obama. She said she saw in Hillary what her potential future could be (so much for goals). When asked if she would vote for Obama in November, she said "I may be faced with with something I don't wanna have to deal with". She was basically referring to the point that she may not vote. Can I say IGNORANT, IGNORANT, IGNORANT!!! This interview spoke on sooo many levels. The speech by Clinton was on UNITY, uniting the party, and encouraging her followers to vote for Obama. I never heard her say to not vote. The attitude of this delegate is one that the Democratic party can do without. And for her to mention slightly that "we" fought for the right to vote, meant she knows that her future actions are wrong. I believe that everyone has a right to their own opinion, but doing the right thing  should always override an opinion? Three words for the delegate GET OVER IT. Its been over 7 weeks since Barack has had the nomination, there was plenty of time for her to take hold of her emotions, instead of having a hissy fit.

 

I Love Reality T.V

This must be the season for me and my reality t.v shows. So many shows are coming on that I'm in love with and have to rearrange my schedule for. I almost feel like I have something to watch everyday of the week or at least every other day. Here's my weekly line up ( I'm sure I'll forget something):

Sunday-

Army Wives (I know not reality, but this show is great)

Bridezilla

Monday-  

I want to work for Diddy

The Hills

Sweet Sixteen Exile

Luke's Parental Advisory

Tuesday-

Baldwin Hills (Off now)

From G's to Gents

Making The Band

Real Housewives of Atlanta

Wednesday-

Can't Remember

Run's House

Thursday-

Glam God

Friday-

Baisden After Dark

Saturday-

Instant Beauty Pageant

So far my t.v schedule is keeping me from catching up with my friends and family. But I do love the drama filled shows. I'm sure I'm missing something but I'll think of it soon.

Real post to follow ;-)

Interracial Dating and the like....

                                                         

So one of my coworkers and I had a  conversation on why he doesn't date black women. Actually, it didn't start out like that, it started by me asking if he dated white women. And his reply was yes, and I said, I figured. He got offended but I felt like me saying "I Figured" wasn't an offensive phrase. I said it based on some of the information he told me previously, as well as his attitude. Personally, I respect anyone's choice on that matter, too me he took it a step further when he said "that's why I don't date black women, because of their attitude". Once again, I'm cool with you dating whomever, but to make a statement that you don't date within your own race or that you'd rather not, seems a little suspect to me. One of his claims was that they/we have the "Black Woman's Attitude" (BWA), which includes drama, arguing, and complaining. I explained to him that that's not all black women, and maybe the one's with BWA have it because of the (BMB) the "Black Man Bullshit", we deal with constantly. I do believe that we as black women we are prideful, not arrogant, we would like too compromise and not settle, however we settle for the BMB, hoping to be the strong black woman he needs. I wonder what type of backlash we would receive if we took the same attitude of some black men who prefer to date outside of their race. I believe the days are gone where interracial dating is totally unacceptable, however I find it ignorant to rule out one particular race for whatever reason, especially that of your own.

Black in America

Today was the first segment of Black in America, and if you missed it, please stay tuned tomorrow. Today focused on the Black Woman in every aspect. This documentary really made you think as a black person, so I really wonder what was the opinion of other races. There are so many elements that we as black women deal with on a daily basis and to break it down, it really shows our strength and tenacity. 

Another particular feature that stood out to me was the tracing of our roots. So many of us are off springs of slave masters and we don't even know it. It stood out to me because as a middle school student one of my assignments was to trace back my roots. The furthest I got was my Great-Grandfathers father was a white man and his mother was a black woman. In the area where I grew up there are caucasian people that share the same last name as I, and I'm sure there is a connection somewhere along the line. Tracing and knowing my roots is something that I find very interesting and may dig a little deeper because it opens up so many doors in the future just by knowing. You really wouldn't want to marry your cousin, would you LOL!!! As a black person I am sometime in awe of other races who have so much knowledge on their family history as well as culture. I think this is one area where the black community is lacking because of the "unspoken or unknown" tales of our families past as well as heritage. Our ancestors were taken from an area that was deeply rooted in heritage, and because of that I believe there is some sort of disconnect  with us blacks that were born here in America. We classify ourselves as blacks and sometimes African Americans but not really taking the "african" piece into consideration, hence, disconnect from our heritage and true blood line.

I think that this documentary serves as a milestone in a pivotal time in black america. I hope that tomorrow is just as informative and interesting as today. 

What are your opinions of the show if you watched it? What stood out the most? Can you relate to the areas that the documentary focused on?

Its me again!!!

Sooo I'm back I just been taking a little "me" time for those of you that have asked. Within the "me" time I have realized that blogging is necessary for me. I feel like when I cut back, I become a little stressed because in a way, this is truly an outlet as well as my personal journal. I've written blogs/thoughts that will become blogs but haven't posted them yet. So trust and believe I will be returning to my regular posting:-)  

P.S- I have been stalking you guys, I know I haven't commented or responded to your comments but I will very soon!!! Eb I am sooo enjoying all of the new music you are posting and happy I get to download it!!!

Who Watched The BET Awards???

At first I wasn't going to watch the BET awards because D.L Hughley was hosting and he is sooo not funny to me, luckily he isn't getting that much time (yea-ah). So below is my minute by minute review if ya missed it.

"Mr. Grown Man" himself, Usher  kicked the show off and it was a pretty good performance, I'm sure more will follow and the intensity and hype level will increase!!! 

Young Jeezy and Kanye West took the stage and was so-so. Tip to Mr. West: Let T-Pain do T-Pain... PLEASE, that computer-love-techno-synthesis was sooo...OFF!!!

Now you all know it made my day to see my #1 hood family Neffie and Frankie on the award show... HOLLA!!! Neffie's dress was hawt yet a bit too small!!! Now ya'll know I love me some Keyshia Cole, but she is sooo not a live singer, I mean off pitch, out of tune, and excedera excedera. It was very entertaining to see Lil Kim pop out though!!! 

Is Neo ever gonna stop imitating MJ? However, his "Stomp The Yard/"Diamond" from player's Club" routine was hawt, he even included the church mimers!!! I may break down and buy his cd.

I absolutely LOVED Ashanti's dress... too cute!!!

Alicia Keyes did her THANG!!! I may just become a fan after all, I think I'm the only one that's not a fan. No lie, A. Keyes does put on a damn good live performance, I can't even hate!!! Then she always pays respect to those that paved the way, SWV, EnVogue, and TLC.

When the BIGGEST BOSS that I seen thus far (ROSS) stepped on stage, it was all over for ya girl!!! I love me some Ross, that's one big dude that can get it (male boobs, stomach and all)!!! The SOUTH totally REPRESENTED, Big Boi, OMG!!! I am sooo missing Ga. and the panhandle right now, then popped out Luda... BET is doing it BIG tonight!!! Can you feel the happiness in my keystrokes!!!

                            IS HIP-HOP DEAD? I THINK NOT!!!

BET never ceases to amaze me... after all of the foul and fornicative (is that a word) language/sexy dance moves, who do you bring out next? Marvin Sapp, of course, complete with a choir and a choir director that mirrored an angel. What would have really took the cake, is if Lil Weezy would have popped out with... the remix baby (LOL, forgive me)!!!  Marvin Sapp even included a picture of our future President and First Lady. This is why I love BLACK people, we can always stop and give an intermission for Jesus!!! Was it me, or did you also see that Marvin Sapp was iced out?

My CRUSH Chris Brown, along with Ciara really did their thang on the dancing tip, Ciara was putting it on him. Mtv's ANBDT Contestants have to really step their game up, to get on "they" level!!!

OMG, I didn't know there was an "Rev. Al Green St.", imagine giving that as your address, things that make you go... hmmmnn!!! I am sooo loving the Al Green portion, its making me wanna throw on all white, step in the name of love, and get my Saturday morning clean up on!!! Wow, Anthony Hamilton looked like he smelled good, he even had the open shirt minus the pubic chest hair, kudos. Then Maxwell walked up... slowly, looking and sounding good, please give us another album...soon!!! Damn, he even did a MJ spin and crotch grab, Maxwell is really putting himself back in the game with this performance!!! Don't you think Cedrick the Entertainer could be a descendent of Al Green? Even the rappers were up grooving with Al Green, he just took us from Hoppo's jook joint back to church, the doors are now open, give me your hand and the Lawd your heart!!! 

Is that a "leather in the summertime suit" that Terrance is wearing? Three words WTF!!!

Is that Ms. Cita on stage with Weezy (not a real fan if you don't know Ms. Cita)? I told you Lil Wayne should have been on the Never Would Have Made It remix, because "without God we are nothing"!!!

Even my girl crush Rhianna sounded better than Keyshia Cole and we all know the deal on that. Can you believe I don't have the re-released album, I definitely have to go get that because I did bootleg the first one... I know that's bad, but I no longer bootleg since I got my Mac (scared im'ma get caught).

Now I also LOVE me some Nelly, but this Stepped on my J's song should have been an Soulja Boy original, so the kids could have supa man'd that ooohhh, because right now its pure fuckery!!!

Lauren Londen will forever be NuNu to me, but her weave was on point!!! BTW, have you ever had Ciroc (liquid crack as my cousin would say), its smooth and will sneak up on ya?

I think T-Pain should write a series of children books because he is really a character, no really, he can transform into any character... literally!!! WOW T-Pain just transformed into T-Wayne...did you see it???

Ooooh I just got a glimpse of Tyrese, um um um!!!

I really wanna go on record saying that was one of the BEST BET Award Shows I've seen in a very long time, I mean very long time!!!