Frustration Friday

So I haven't posted in a while because I've had sooo much frustration built up. I did manage to change my profile song to That Hump by Badu, because it describes exactly how I feel right now. Funny thing is, if I could get over that hump,  I'm sure another one would present itself in my life. But I guess humps and frustrations are a daily presence in our lives to serve as a reminder of how much we've grown, changed, and adapted to situations in our lives. So I decided to take this post and pour all of my frustration into it.

First and foremost the "JOB" situation has had my mind on lock down. Thing is, I had an interview yesterday and as soon as I got home they called with an offer, so I should be happy right? Well the job isn't all that, but I REFUSE to pay rent out of my dwindling savings. The things about jobs and the interview process is, it sucks!!! Its sucks that I applied for sooo many jobs and have just recently got call backs from companies, case in point, after I accepted the job someone else calls me today for a phone interview and to inquire about a time I can come in for a face to face interview. I guess it would help if I new exactly what I wanted to do in life. My dream job would include shopping for others and traveling all around doing it. As far as my frustration goes, is the interview process. You interview, do well, and get invited for a second interview, do well there, and... never hear back from the company. That really aggravates me because I've been on two specific interviews and also had second interviews as well, and during the interview I ASKED, will I hear back from you all whether positive or negative, here it is 4 weeks later no call, rejection letter, or anything.  I also sent a follow up letter and called.

My second frustration is location. I absolutely love my neighborhood (Wisteria Lane) but if I could move it to a more central location where there are bars, more shopping areas, BLACK people, a church I could grow in, a Dominican shop, and, did I mention BLACK people, I would be a lot happier!!!

Third, I miss my friends. Although I don't call and talk to them frequently I miss the hell out of all of them and value the short periods of time we spend together ( I know they ain't reading). I'm a people person, so I meet people all the time, but because I value friendship, I hold certain qualities very, very high. I'll have to do a post soon on friendship, well, "friends/acquaintances" I've had since being here. 

Fourth, is the dating scene, which ties back into LOCATION!!! It seems like most of the black guys I see always have white women, and the one's I see without them always have something white... a cigarette hanging out their mouth or in their hands!!! Not that I'm desperate to date, because I love doing me, but I'd rather be doing... well you get what I'm saying (Grandma if you're reading this, disregard that statement and don't print out this post for your friends). 

Fifth, what is going on with the order of A Different World, some nights its going in order and other nights you can tell an episode was skipped. I'm tuned in as if  this is a newly scheduled broadcast, when the order is skipped or BET chooses not to play an episode; I am at the highest level of pisstivity, since there are no reality shows to keep my attention. 

Last of my frustrations, are the directions I want my blog to go in. I know I haven't posted in a while, but I have been stalking everyone else's blog,  even though I only commented a few times. Its quite evident that  a few bloggers are shutting down their blogs or making it private, which saddens me because I really enjoy stalking some of you. Over my uneventful days, the idea of censorship has come up. My blog is open, and most of my friends and families read, but I think I've been censoring my my thoughts as well as my post content. As I look over my past post, I think some of you may know me, but mainly the one's that knew me before. I think that I've been a bit "surface level", and would like you to know ME and all the simple complexities of my world. So from now on, I'm gonna post exactly what's on my mind (that means I'll learn how to mobile blog... FINALLY).

While its on my mind, I want to put a couple of things on "The F-It" list. The F-It list is a list of things or people I can take off my mind and say F-It to!!! 

F-It List

1. Mr. Y- I released you and I allowed you to pass through only to make me realize, a leopard doesn't change it's spots!!!

Trust me this list will grow rapidly, before you know it.

Totally, Me!!!

What Kristin Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

So I got this post from Eb (thanx), I haven't posted lately because sooo much is on my mind and I'm preoccupied with... ME!!! I promise a post will be coming as soon as I clear my mind!!!

Last Week Fun!!!

So I couldn't blog as soon as I wanted because I left my computer charger in Ga., and was not about to spend $79.99 to get another one. It was my Grandma's 50th class reunion that's why I took the trip and paid no attention that it was a Holiday weekend because Memorial Day isn't a holiday that sticks as well as birthdays LOL!!! Anyways I had sooo much fun with my Grandma and the senior citizens. The way her Alma Mater does reunions is to celebrate all the years that ended with 8,9, etc. a joint celebration. The event kicked off with a march from the class of 2008, followed by the class of '48, '58, '68, and so forth. My Grandma gave the invocation and I believe she forgot she was in a school and took us straight to church!!! The reunion address was so inspirational, I felt like I was graduating!!! The speakers message was:

 "3 F's and an A"

1. Face your Fears

2. Forget your Failures

3. Fix your Focus

A- in all your ways acknowledge him and  he shall direct thy path

This milestone for my Grandma was especially intriguing to me because 50 additional years of being alive and maintaining an active lifestyle in the community is something I would like to emulate, and I'm happy I witnessed it first hand. The event was also intriguing because this particular school was the only  school blacks could attend back in the day, I was saddened by the poor turnout from the class of '98. So much history and knowledge in one room. A school built on the foundation of educating blacks to become a pillar in the community and society as a whole. Although this isn't my alma mater (actually our rival) I would like to salute the Spencer Greenwaves for past, present, and future endeavors in education. 

Let's just say the party didn't end there!!! Later on there was a Banquet which highlighted a dance. I was hesitant to commit to it but decided to go all out with my Grandma and happy I did. These Seniors were having a ball and so were we (my cousins and I). I mean the older people new all of the two steps, I couldn't even catch on half of the time. The food and the music were GREAT!!!!

Photo shoot in Grandma's walkway (yep I'm a product of the Hood)

Although I had hella fun with the family and at the class reunion, you know I couldn't visit Ga. and not kick it with my peeps!!! Come on... this ME!!!

So you know I had to make my way to the 'Bany, purposely to see my friends and get a dose of that Down South Ghetto Hustla Music!!! Let's just say that my night was WILD and ended in a good way!!! Below are pics of the friends and I. 

P.S- Shout to The Trap and Big Daddies for supplying the most ghetto music in South West Ga.!!

Line Sisters from the First and Best Sorority

I always have to have a photo shoot... LOL

Friends since Freshman Year 2000

Yep its poppin

Although the night had to end the real fun begin at the after party LOL!!!

Airports, Airlines,...Fuckery!!!

With the increasing rise of gas prices, I think its only fair to say traveling by air is cheaper in most aspects. And because of that, airlines are taking full advantage and upping the bullshit. Where does all of my animosity stem from?

A. Missing my plane to Ga. last Wednesday

B. The inconsistency of services rendered to me ( the customer)

So I missed my plane, ad I'll take the blame for that. But coming from a region where the International airport is the largest establishment of its kind, my expectations are HIGH!!! My logic is, if you're a small airport, open up more, or maybe All of the security checkpoints. This makes sense especially when the line is beginning to curve outside of the sectioned area. Wednesday in Dulles airport, I felt like cattle being herded to its final destination. On top of that I get on the wrong bus/shuttle (yes I too make mistakes), which takes you to the final terminal. I end up at gate 41 and my plane was departing from gate 66 (go figure). This aspect of transportation really aggravates the hell out of me because I'm used to the underground train system in Atl. So I had to head back home and get up at 4 am to catch a standby flight at 6:45am, which was an extra $5 charge along with a strong possibility I would not catch a plane out because everything was booked. I said a quick prayer and after 2 standby passengers, I was the third and final one let on!!!

This takes me to my next level of pisstivity from airlines and carriers... Inconsistency. I attempt to leave (from Dulles) with my largest piece of luggage in my set. everything goes well, meaning no hidden fees or charges. Upon checking my bag in Atl., some guy pulls out his measuring tape (like he was about to size me correctly for a bra) and start measuring the length of my bag. He goes on to say that my luggage is over the height requirements, which will be an extra $29.99, so you know I got an instant attitude, which totally ruins my flight home. I've heard of all of the price changes for additional bags but this height requirement which wasn't required when I left was new to me. Airports and airlines, are nickel and dime'n all across, each week something different!!!

My thing is, if you know people are going to be traveling through your establishment, have newer technology for means of transportation. Airports need to find a way to remain consistent across the board. TSA officers enforce rules differently across airports, based on my traveling experiences.

Do you know of any other businesses where the art of Fuckery reigns supreme?

Happy Birthday Gemini

I am a Gemini in EVERY aspect, so since this is my astrological sign I posted info on its characteristics. B.T.W my bithday is on the 20th of June.

Gemini

May 21-June 20

Gemini go everywhere together, hand-in-hand, symbolizing your dual nature. Our world comes in pairs: good and evil, male and female, in and out, yin and yang -- and you Geminis are living proof. Some might say Gemini are an entanglement of paradoxes, but the truth is that Gemini have an easy acceptance of opposites. Gemini world is one of duality. Gemini can like this and that, one thing and its opposite. It's like you see your world through a radio and Gemini can tune experiences and points of view in and out as your interests change.

Us Geminis are curious, talkative, versatile and mentally active. Our mind can bounce around from one topic to another with great ease, making Gemini the champion of cocktail party chatter and lighthearted social encounters. Others will think that Gemini are fun to be with, but your ability to change with the changing winds can also lead others to see Gemini as shallow.

Gemini motto might be "A rolling stone gathers no moss." You are the eternally youthful child, no matter your chronological age. A razor-sharp wit can have you verbally dueling with the very best of opponents, who moments later are your best of friends. As you fly through life, don't forget to take time to smell the flowers.

Element: Air

The astrological element of air represents movement. And the most efficient movement between two points is often a thought. Air signs are thinkers. They emphasize the intellect over other functions. With active minds and a good command of language, the air signs are the natural born communicators. They can be light and breezy as the breath of spring, but their words can also carry the power of a gale force wind.The air of Gemini is always changing direction. First the winds blow one way, then another. It's a metaphor for how our mind solves a puzzle, first thinking one way and then trying a different approach. This is a restless and searching wind.

Third House: Communication

The Third House symbolizes all aspects of communication -- and most communication happens within our immediate environment. Therefore this is also the house of our surrounding. Traditionally, this includes the type of interactions that happen between siblings, whether or not you actually have any. It also represents quick trips and short-distance travel.

Key Planet: Mercury

Mercury, the Messenger of the Gods, moves around the Sun faster than any other planet. He symbolizes our thoughts -- not only how we think, but how we communicate. In fact, Mercury is in charge of all language. Mercury is our active and rational mind. It is not only "just the facts" but also what we do with them. As the key planet of Gemini, Mercury is restless and changeable. It drives us to talk and to listen, but not necessarily to action.

Gemini Greatest Strength: Your curiosity about a variety of interests

Gemini Possible Weakness: Distracting yourself from what is most important

Find out your 2008 horoscope here (for Gemini's)

(In the tune of Uncle Luke) Hey what's that number one Birthday Month...

Review of Erykah Badu's Concert

I finally found something to wear, cute, not too much and I was ready (thanx to lil cuzzo for the pic). Let me just say, I left early so I wouldn't be caught in the rush hour traffic of D.C, but as you know... I was!!! 

Anyways I was close to just say'n F it because I got an "instant attiude" cause I couldn't find Constitution Hall (no address listed), but I remembered this is my favorite artist. I asked for directions from a taxi driver, looked to my left and right and saw people who looked like "concert goers" so I followed suit!!!

I finally arrived to the building after $18 in parking fees and two blocks of walking in 3 inch stilletos, to find out NO CAMERAS allowed. I did like every other person... rearrange my bag and walk right in. This place was crowded, everyone and their momma was there... literally. 

I found my seat, the roots were already on stage (I'm late now) and I chilled and watched their show for about 40 mins. I have a newfound respect for the roots, they were on point!!! I met two cool older sisters who were psyched that I was at a concert alone and after about an hour and 10 minutes...

The lights dimmed and 5 sistahs with afro puffs walked out and moved to the beat of Amerykahn Promise, the crowd was screaming ERYKAH, I think we were expecting her to follow with her fro. One of the backup singers looked just like Erykah (sisters, maybe?). Out walked Ms. Badu and the crowd went crazy!!! She poured herself a drink and then drank it, then she pressed this little synthesizer and the show began. 

You can tell that this is an artist that enjoys what she does, she was sashaying, beating on drums, the whole concert was very interactive!!! She moved on to tell us she had been still for a while and said the infamous line "I'm an artist and I'm sensitive about my shit", this led us 

into her next song Me.

I actually can't remember all of the songs but  I believe she performed the first seven songs off of New Amerykah. However she did perform a few songs from her past cd's On and On, Other Side of the game, Orange Moon, Danger, and the last song she performed was Times a Wastin'. The crowd wasn't ready for her to leave because I'm sure everyone was screaming or thinking Tyrone, but she didn't deliver... oh well.  Let me just say, I did't realize the range of her voice, she was hittin high notes all over the place!!!

Erykah enlightened us on two things, Fear and Consumption, chick is real political. She was like they scare us (The Man) and we think we have to go out and buy things to be happy. The only thing I regret about this concert is I didn't jump on the tickets ASAP, I mean this concert was front row and backstage worthy. If you still have a chance please SUPPORT, real music with substance and not just a beat!!! F.Y.I- If you don't have the new c.d, you'll definitely need it  to sing-along!!!

Check out Erykah Badu here and here!!!

I didn't leave the show empty-handed, I got me a souvenir

Could This Be The Worse Movie Ever?

So I had the pleasure of spending a boring Saturday watching How She Moves. Let's just say I am so happy I didn't waste my $9.00 by seeing this at the movies. After 20 minutes I didn't know if the chic was in high school or what... the movie was just scattered!!! As a former stepper, I didn't feel like this was true stepping just a Bootleg version. I was also hesitant to see Stomp The Yard because I think the media capitalizes off of Black America enough, then off of my beloved HBCU's... that's another realm. Take our uniqueness and creativity, but not support our educational endeavors (okay off subject and on my soapbox). But Stomp The Yard was actually good, The Way She Moves is a complete mockery of it. What was up with MTV, this movie is as low budget as it gets. The music is way louder than the the actors speaking!!! I'll say it for everyone... NO More Dance Movies PLEASE!!! 

To think, I'm still watching it... 

Let's all say together... HATED IT!!!

Got My Ticket!!!

                                                                                        

                          SOOOO I got my ticket to see one of my favorite artist... EVER. 

                                                                     Erykah Badu

                   and yes I'm sooo excited because I missed her the last time she performed. 

        

                                                                                            

                                                                               

Ever since the days of Apple Tree I knew we were going to forever have a connection!!! I have absolutely no idea of what I'm wearing but of course I post a pic with my review of this wonderful occasion.

MY BEST OF BADU WOULD INCLUDE:

1. OTHER SIDE OF THE GAME

2. NEXT LIFETIME

3. KISS ME ON MY NECK

5. BOOTY

6. DIDN'T CHA KNOW

7. I WANT YOU

8. DANGER

9. BACK IN THE DAY

10. TYRONE

11. DANGER

12. MASTER TEACHER

13. THINK TWICE

14. LOVE OF MY LIFE

I actually love them all but those were a few I kept on repeat. I would leave you all with more but I have to go get ready, HoLLa!!!

School... Didn't I think it wasn't for me in high-school!!!

SCHOOL HAS BEEN AGGRAVATING THE HELL OUT OF ME (no comments PAM)

                                          This online way of schooling is totally... 

                                                                   different 

                                                       and  maybe not for me!!! 

                                                             This is the reason

                                                       I haven't been blogging, 

                                       although I haven't exactly been on top of it 

                                                 it has been consuming my mind and thought process!!!

Happy Mother's Day

I hope every mother is having a wonderful day today!!!