Friday, June 13, 2008

Frustration Friday

So I haven't posted in a while because I've had sooo much frustration built up. I did manage to change my profile song to That Hump by Badu, because it describes exactly how I feel right now. Funny thing is, if I could get over that hump,  I'm sure another one would present itself in my life. But I guess humps and frustrations are a daily presence in our lives to serve as a reminder of how much we've grown, changed, and adapted to situations in our lives. So I decided to take this post and pour all of my frustration into it.

First and foremost the "JOB" situation has had my mind on lock down. Thing is, I had an interview yesterday and as soon as I got home they called with an offer, so I should be happy right? Well the job isn't all that, but I REFUSE to pay rent out of my dwindling savings. The things about jobs and the interview process is, it sucks!!! Its sucks that I applied for sooo many jobs and have just recently got call backs from companies, case in point, after I accepted the job someone else calls me today for a phone interview and to inquire about a time I can come in for a face to face interview. I guess it would help if I new exactly what I wanted to do in life. My dream job would include shopping for others and traveling all around doing it. As far as my frustration goes, is the interview process. You interview, do well, and get invited for a second interview, do well there, and... never hear back from the company. That really aggravates me because I've been on two specific interviews and also had second interviews as well, and during the interview I ASKED, will I hear back from you all whether positive or negative, here it is 4 weeks later no call, rejection letter, or anything.  I also sent a follow up letter and called.

My second frustration is location. I absolutely love my neighborhood (Wisteria Lane) but if I could move it to a more central location where there are bars, more shopping areas, BLACK people, a church I could grow in, a Dominican shop, and, did I mention BLACK people, I would be a lot happier!!!

Third, I miss my friends. Although I don't call and talk to them frequently I miss the hell out of all of them and value the short periods of time we spend together ( I know they ain't reading). I'm a people person, so I meet people all the time, but because I value friendship, I hold certain qualities very, very high. I'll have to do a post soon on friendship, well, "friends/acquaintances" I've had since being here. 

Fourth, is the dating scene, which ties back into LOCATION!!! It seems like most of the black guys I see always have white women, and the one's I see without them always have something white... a cigarette hanging out their mouth or in their hands!!! Not that I'm desperate to date, because I love doing me, but I'd rather be doing... well you get what I'm saying (Grandma if you're reading this, disregard that statement and don't print out this post for your friends). 

Fifth, what is going on with the order of A Different World, some nights its going in order and other nights you can tell an episode was skipped. I'm tuned in as if  this is a newly scheduled broadcast, when the order is skipped or BET chooses not to play an episode; I am at the highest level of pisstivity, since there are no reality shows to keep my attention. 

Last of my frustrations, are the directions I want my blog to go in. I know I haven't posted in a while, but I have been stalking everyone else's blog,  even though I only commented a few times. Its quite evident that  a few bloggers are shutting down their blogs or making it private, which saddens me because I really enjoy stalking some of you. Over my uneventful days, the idea of censorship has come up. My blog is open, and most of my friends and families read, but I think I've been censoring my my thoughts as well as my post content. As I look over my past post, I think some of you may know me, but mainly the one's that knew me before. I think that I've been a bit "surface level", and would like you to know ME and all the simple complexities of my world. So from now on, I'm gonna post exactly what's on my mind (that means I'll learn how to mobile blog... FINALLY).

While its on my mind, I want to put a couple of things on "The F-It" list. The F-It list is a list of things or people I can take off my mind and say F-It to!!! 

F-It List

1. Mr. Y- I released you and I allowed you to pass through only to make me realize, a leopard doesn't change it's spots!!!

Trust me this list will grow rapidly, before you know it.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Totally, Me!!!

What Kristin Means
You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

So I got this post from Eb (thanx), I haven't posted lately because sooo much is on my mind and I'm preoccupied with... ME!!! I promise a post will be coming as soon as I clear my mind!!!